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I SWEAR I AM STILL ALIVE



Wow, it's been a while since I last made a journal! This one will be pretty brief, but I feel like I need to make one. After all, I feel most ashamed that I've been so busy, I have been unable to take full advantage and abuse my premium as much as possible this past month, therefore, one last journal on my last day, to make my profile pretty, I'm decorating it with fuure01's magical art.

So, here's a thing on my mind



Well, funny story, lots of things have been on my mind lately! IB students have like, 0 time for just not thinking. But recently, I was thinking more about my art, and what made me happy about it. Why I do art. Because when it comes down to it, when I first started seriously doing it, it was more out of obligation than my own choice. I made art because it interested other people, and it was an easier way to gain effort points on assignments. Back in middle school and early high school, we still made posters and stuff and it was fun to be the one to decorate or design things. Earlier on, I had made art continuously in order to build a profile in case I entered art school. However, when I made the decision to study medicine, I stopped making art for that purpose. I don't do that much anymore these days, because there is less and less room for my own form of expression with my assignments. I dropped art classes in favor of science (which is a decision I don't regret), however, I'm not eligible for any kind of art schools now.
So logically, art has no real place for me, right?
For a while I was thinking about it, if I should just stop making art, and thinking about ideas for new pieces, because I won't really get around to them, and the only thing I'm doing is art for myself. If i do art, it's no longer benefiting anyone but myself. 



But is there really anything wrong with that?

I started coming to the realization that, yes, I can be selfish. I can make art for myself, because it makes me happy and keeps me sane. I never considered myself a real artist because I liked making things for other people, or in order to please other people. I liked seeing my improvements, and I liked the encouragement people gave me when they saw my improvements. I liked making people happy and inspiring people with my work.

I think about other people I knew who stopped making art because they lost inspiration due to lack of passion. Or they felt down when they took a different direction and people didn't approve of their work as much as before. I want to wrap my arms around these people and tell them that it doesn't matter what others say to you, your work is your own.
And it becomes pretty tricky when sometimes, you realize what makes you like your art is that it makes other people happy. And there's nothing bad about that either! But never feel like you have to stick in a box of 'what is good'. If you have that urge to try something new, don't suppress it!

Sometimes it's easier said than done. I have those voices in my head a lot that tell me I shouldn't bother making work if nobody will like it, or if it has no meaning.
Should I really listen to this voice?   


It depends.
I've concluded that I really have to take a look at the real reason I make art. It's nice to say, "Keep making art no matter what anyone says!". But sometimes, some people lose passion for art, but feel obligated to continue in hopes that they will someday rekindle their love or inspiration for it, and grow more frustrated when they cannot.
I don't like thinking of people forcing themselves, because if you're not in a happy place, you shouldn't be trying at something you know might not get you there. I learned a lot from fuure01 about art, about the payoff from striving hard to do what you love, because you know it makes you happy, and he's a brilliant example of how you can improve. But he has real passion for art. Does it mean feeling like making work every day, and every piece turns out perfectly expected? No, but he keeps working at it, and he pushes himself further and further, and that's I think, what you gotta keep in mind when you find yourself down.
I feel like, if you lack passion for it, you shouldn't be doing it. Stopping art for either a few weeks to years ... it doesn't mean that you've lost anything. To be honest, often, when people stop trying to push themselves in specific directions, they can find it freeing, and they can find other passions in other places. And usually, in those other places, they can meet new people and they can continue to inspire and educate and please other people as well as themselves.

This was more of a musing rather than anything else, and it's 12:30 at night and I'm tired, but I feel like this is just some rambling I gotta get out.
I make my work for many different reasons, and many of them are selfish reasons. But I don't think that's necessarily bad.

I'll continue making art. I see my work kind of as a documentation of my growth over time, and to be honest, even the absences of my work can say some things about me as well. So I'll just not worry so much, if I'm making art, or if I'm not. Because in the end, whatever you do, as long as you're doing it to make yourself happy, you should be doing it.

Thank you for sticking with me, through my presences and my absences! I will never be able to express my thankfulness!


All art by the brilliant fuure01
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Hello, friends, it's Moi here!

I'm happy to be back (albeit very jet lagged) from my trip! I was in the Philippines last week, on an internship I got after applying for it way back in January or something. There, I hung out with this organization that helps with the treatment of eyesight in select developing countries. Not only does it treat eyesight - it's main goal is to educate on modern and cost-efficient treatments. They do so on an airplane that functiones as a hospital, if you can believe it. Check out the diagram below, it's a legit thing!

AIRPLANE LAYOUT





For me, I was able to observe patients and gather information on them whilst learning alongside some junior doctors.

The classroom (background) is a 48-seat lecture room in the front of the plane, which is the only place that actually looks like an airplane. There, doctors conduct presentations, discussions, and demonstrations as well as stream live footage of surgeries going on in the operating room.

The lazer treatment room is a multi-functional room, where patients wait and are screened once more to ensure they are in good-enough shape for surgery. It functions as a waiting room, but also is where patients can be brought for lazer eye treatment. Also, there's an educational tool - a simulator for intraocular surgery. If one looks through the microscope, it is a surprisingly lifelike simulation of what an eye surgeon would see.

The operating room can fit around five to six people at one time. There are cameras and microphones there that stream live to the classroom, and so those in the classroom can ask the surgeon questions as they operate. Along the hallway, there is also a window that one can see into the room as well. A sub-sterile room is directly attached for storage and sterilization of instruments.

The recovery room is where patients are prepared for and recover from surgery. It has three beds: the closest to the OR is the patient that has just come out of the room (either under local or general anesthesia), the second bed is for a patient who is recovering from the anesthesia (is stable enough to leave), and the last bed is for a patient being prepared to go into the operating room. This is where local nurses are trained in patient care.

There is a really organized flow, as there is not that much space between each section at all. Only 1-2 people can fit in the hallway alongside all these rooms. 
It was so wonderful, I got to meet so many brilliant doctors as well as many patients. 


So, what is so amazing about this?

Probably one of the most significant things I discovered about this organization was that they are much more than what is on the surface. Most peoples' initial impressions are a group of doctors who come into a country, helping a handful of people with their shiny western ophthalmology tricks, then leave. That is far from the truth. Instead, they come and teach lasting skills to doctors, nurses, technicians and all the hospital staff who are involved in eye health, leaving all their knowledge there.




"Imagine the world around you in darkness. For millions of people this darkness is a reality. Blindness takes away so much more than vision. It can impede your ability to gain an education. It can prevent you from finding employment. It can lead you and your family into a life of poverty."
Vision is within reach.


A last thank you to sennipo for my premium.



Well, that was a good start to the summer! I hope all of you guys are having a good one. This has been my vacation time; I'm going to have to work on school for most of the summer, but hopefully I can squeeze in a bit of time for some art. (Gotta finish someone's birthday present!)

I hope you enjoyed this journal, I just had to share it with you guys!

I must go now, I'm coming down with a bad flu;
:icontransparentplz:

  • Note:
  • I'm a bit unsure about using direct names within DA, because the thing about third-party advertizing or what not. To be safe, the name of the organization isn't included.
  • But if you want, just search up "Flying Eye Hospital" for details.
    All photography is by me.


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Tagged!

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Tagged by fuure01! It's been a while since I've actually done a tag, so why not? Also ulterior motive: got some more CSS to try out!


1. How did you join dA?

Back when I thought I was being this rebel child for joining DA when I was 11 instead of 13, I did it following the magical trail of Harry Potter fanart

2. What does your username have to do with you?

Silly thing, actually, but it was a name I thought of, going back to elementary school. For a school assignment, we were asked to think of a utopia and name it. Because we were like 7-8 years old, our utopia would be an island without pollution, surrounded by nature, and it would have both tropical beaches and was known for its high mountains. Also, candy would grow on trees. So we ended up calling our little paradise, "Moisca", for Mountain (Mo) Island (Is) Candy (Ca), and that's it!

3. What is your current avatar of?

My OC Misha, and he is paired with the amazing fuure01 like look at these babs:
:iconmoiscen::iconfuure01:

4. How many watchers do you have, and how many do you watch?

I have 2800+ Watchers and I watch 400+ people/accounts

5. Do you have more than one account?

Let's not go there wow haha

6. Name three of your favorite artists on dA.

fuure01||Everyone else on my watch list||SO YOU, AND IF NOT, LIKELY I FORGOT TO WATCH YOU


7. What deviant(s) do you admire because of their personality?

So many people here have the most lovely personalities I cannot ever choose just one omg
You are all just so sweet and make my face turn all the wrong colors and so many of you have such lively personalities, and interesting stories, and I wanna sit here with my tea at your feet and
listen to you all tell me your cool life stories

8. How many deviants do you actually know in reality? Post their avatars.

Ah, actually, I met SirMimsyPompingdon and eightsound in real life (as well as a few others at cons) and they are so cool and nice, wow
Mimsy and I met like twice man, such cool times, I am getting better at spotting that familiar face in a crowd; and Liona was so sweet and talented, we had a real-life art trade at the latest MCM, like WHOA, coolest life experience ever

9. Do you comment, fave, or both?

Both! But it really depends on how I feel that day, or how I just respond to the piece. Usually if I really like something, I comment, but other times, I fave when I want to remind myself to go back to it and comment later. I'm a procrastinator, I'm so sorry;
You know the feeling where you think they deserve a better comment and then you kinda put it off like "I'll write a better comment when I have time" and then 3.4 months later you're like "they probably forgot that piece existed".

10. What do you typically post on deviantART?

Paintings, drawings, photos, and inconspicuous rants about the IB and my procrastination abiliy.

11. Do you participate in clubs or contests here on dA?

-nervous sweating-
Sometimes I am chosen in some of clubs at times, but not too often.

12. What is your most popular deviation? As in most viewed or most favorited?


Most favorites: Favorites: 2700+

Fall to Pieces by Moiscen

Fall to Pieces

Moiscen


Most views: Views: 19,000+
Desperation by Moiscen

Desperation

  Moiscen



13. What's your favorite submission in your gallery?

Cranes

  Moiscen
SNK: Levi by Moiscen

SNK: Levi

  Moiscen
DHMIS Notepad: Get Creative by Moiscen

DHMIS Notepad

  Moiscen
SNK: Eren Jaeger by Moiscen

SNK: Eren Jaeger

  Moiscen


14. What are things you wish you could draw better?

Faces, people, logarithmic functions, backgrounds, the phospholipid bilayer, square things, expressions, hands and feet especially, perspective, textures, accurate diagrams of the digestive system, accurate biology diagrams period, sports material, realism, abstract, hair, grass, metal, oil, hats, flowers (like the really fancy artistic kind), skin (color better/more realistic), iPods, computers, phones, technology in general, proportions, mitochondria, muscles, torsos, textures of a leaf surface, buildings, toenails, ears, skylines, water, fruits, food in general, trees, pavement, fish, dust, cats, holes, zygotes, animals in general, glass, blood, translucence, a mass spectrometer, pipettes, really accurate conical flasks, really accurate lab apparatus in general, rain, light, really cool fandom stuff that I'm usually to scared to try, city scenes, logos, shoes, wood chips, instruments like flutes and violins, pipe organs, swirls, detailed and intricate designs, the survey corps insignia, rotting things, stomata, clothing, plaid especially, the list is very long and obscure

15. Do you have a premium membership?

Yes! I'm so lucky to have one! I really love abusing them and trying to take full advantage of them while I have them, so please excuse my spamming of CSS and constant profile changes while I have one.

16. How many hours a day do you spend on dA?

Too many when I have free time, man

17. Are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?

Average, like 80ish WPM but it is fast enough to type to a slow-talking teacher, which works.

18. What is the most annoying thing people ask you?

I actually don't get too annoyed by questions. If you are curious, then I have no right to call you annoying. But one thing that might bother me a bit is when I receive messages/notes with people practically throwing this huge project at me, and they go along the lines of,
"I am making this manga but I need someone to draw and so can you draw for me?" and they give me all these links to their characters and stories, and that's great, but it is kind of overwhelming to me and makes me feel kind of stressed and guilty, because I have to decline, and you've assumed I said yes, and you like, PREPARED yourself for this moment, and I feel bad to say no ...

But I will pretty much guarantee you right now that if you message me and ask this way, I'll have to decline! it's nothing against you or anything like that, it's just that I am a slow-working person and I don't have time for that kind of thing ;w;

19. What is the most annoying/offending comment you've ever received?

Haha, I'd prefer not to share this information. I like to think these things stay between us.

20. What/Who inspires you?

EVERYTHING MAN but usually experiences and other artists! Also just random people I talk to!

21. Do you use guidelines when you draw?

Yes I use the IB criterion on all my works following all the rubrics on the IB scale of 1-7 I don't touch anything without consulting the rubric first, I'm a good human

22. Do you associate people on deviantART with their icons?

IT IS KINDA SAD BUT YES
if you change your icon I'M SORRY but I will legitimately not know who you are for a while, it's like you changed your face, and if you change your username too you'll pretty much be a different person unless I talk to you regularly or know you and your art I'm so sorry but I get really attached to your icons guys
I'm a hypocrite because I just changed mine hahaha

23. Have you ever suggested a Daily Deviation?

Yeeees and one day
one day my suggestions shall be chosen, because the artist I suggest more than deserve it.


24. Everyone has considered leaving dA once or twice. Have you? Why?

HAHAHAHA MULTIPLE TIMES and it usually begins with someone IRL finding my account and my obsession with Kuroshit like wow let's really not go there
Also when it becomes a bad procrastination problem for me also I'm like hhhh should I kinda just shut down my account
but I also am really attached to this site man

25. Have you ever got a Daily Deviation?

Si, and I still can't believe I got one omg, that was like my lifelong DA dream since I was but a young moislug

26. Have got over 9,000 Points?

HAHANO dude I am lucky if I have 300 points at a time I'm kinda poor

27. Your Profile Design Theme is?

Forever changing
A mild CSS disaster


28. Your most fav. picture of one your characters drawn by an other artist.


Babs

  fuure01


I mean look at these adorable babs, I can hardly believe it! Candy and Rei are so talented and this was such a wonderful suprise! Also, fuure01 has made me other AMAZING BRILLIANT reference sketch of Misha (isn't on DA though)

29. Who was your first friend(s) on DA?

Oh my gosh it's super hard to remember wayyyyy way back, but it was a group of photographers, and they were all really amazing and sweet but I think they are all inactive and some deactivated their accounts.
I remember though, some of my earliest friends (I met when I started posting Kuroshitsuji art) were SweetLittleVampire, Pennciel, and Yasuwolfie.

30. Noticed anything interesting on DA?

um

31. Your biggest wish on DA?

One of my wishes is that I'll continue to inspire people, and that I'll find a style of art that I'm really comfortable and somewhat happy with soon in the future. And that people can recognize it as my own ...

32. Are you a founder of a Group?

Ah, nope

33. Has your art ever showed up on the Front Page?

Yes, actually! It was really awesome, it happened like two times, and people were telling me and I kind of didn't believe them! Like wow, that was really amazing;

34. What is the best thing you ever got on DA?

Meeting this perfect bab, fuure01 and all my other wonderful friends here that I adore; you guys mean so much to me!

35. Ever had an Art Block?

Happen at the worst times man

36. Do you like your username?

I am picky, I kinda actually wanna change it to Moiscen, that would be cooler but it's not a huge change, and I don't think it matters too much;

37. Your most fav. character of your characters/OC's?

Out of my glorious myriad of thousands of OCs I still gotta pick Misha he's srsly the only OC I have which is kinda sad but I love him; oh but there is also my poorly-developed character Gen but um

39. What was your first try to get popular on DA when you was new?

I never actively tried to get noticed until I STARTED getting noticed haha; my account was kinda dead for a year, and then last-last november, I started getting actual comments on my art and like 30 faves per painting and that was a HUGE deal for me and after that, I started actually talking to more than 2 people and submitting/interacting in groups and posting journals and stuffs

40.What is your first Art Trade Picture?

Never did an art trade, actually! But I did do some collabs, all with fuure01 because he's brilliant I mean look:

c e r n e n u s by fuure01

C e r n e u s

  fuure01
aequorial by fuure01

Aequorial

  fuure01

Collab: Brand New Day by fuure01

Collab: Brand New Day

  fuure01



41.What is your next goal?

To keep improving. to hopefully, inspire more people, to make new friends, to keep the ones I have ...
Also I kinda really want to get really good and neat handwriting and be good at drawing biology diagrams, that would be really really great

42. Wanna tag one?

ANYONE WHO WANTS TO BE, GO FOR IT


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Welcome to my journal! Main reason I'm doing this is to test out a cool CSS thing! Because I love to waste time like that. But then, since I have not made a WIP journal in a while, I thought, "why not? Especially since I realized I have never done a painting WIP series, only for my splatter ink ones. Now I see why - when you're working with watercolor, everything dries so fast!

Even so, here it is! I'm going to try to give some hints or tips, especially for beginners. But first thin you should know is that I don't work professionally. At all. I'm really messy and I'm always covered in ink afterwards. Furthermore, as seen above, I have to edit my paintings a bit before I post them, because I don't have a scanner. Generally, I take photographs during the day, when I can get the best lighting.

I hope you enjoy! Feel free to ask any more questions in the comments!


Material:

Before you watercolor, good things to have on hand:
  • Paintbrushes - many sizes; soft ones are the best, in my experience.
  • Water, for mildly obvious reasons
  • A palette (for paint). I don't wash my palette. Watercolor is great that way! So you don't have to mourn the beautiful colors you make when you are done painting. I haven't washed my palette in over a year c:.
  • Tissue paper (I use toilet paper oho so professional) - is good for when you put too much water
  • Scrap watercolor paper - very useful for testing out colors before you actually put them on paper. For me, with my limited knowledge of color and how you make actual color, my creative process is a long string of trial and error. Recommended if you have trouble remembering how much is dark, and how to mix!
  • Also, pencils and erasers - kneaded erasers are the best. Often, use light pencil to sketch out what you want to paint, so it is easy to erase later!
  • Good quality watercolor paper - it is really worth it! Because with good quality paper, it doesn't bend and give as much, and it holds much more water! Sadly, my scrap paper is actually made of better quality paper than my painting (scrap papers can be recycled too!)


Okay, so important, important! Most important and literally probably the only thing I needed to master before I started actually being somewhat satisfied with my art: LAYERS. Time and time again, it is really good to start with light, base colors. With watercolor, it always looks darker when it is wet. So don't worry too much about your base colors being too dark; but they should be fairly light. It's good to mix them a bit; for this I used a mix of grown, green and blue for colors. I knew that I'd give Eren shadow-y eyes, so greenish kinda worked, and I know he has kind of beige tan skin.

Also, if you have base colors, sometimes it is good to blend them when they are wet. It's really trial and error, but the nice thing about watercolor is that if you make a mistake, add water, and you can pretty much erase it.

Further layering on skin! You go from dark to light, but usually, when painting a face, I go over it at least three times, each time with slightly darker color, and less water. As you go on, generally, I tend to use less and less water, because the colors stay dark. It's VERY hard to layer if you use a lot of water - usually if you add too much water when you are layering, the paint bleeds through and blends all the layers below it. Be careful! That's the downside of 'eraseable' paint, haha.

Usually, during these stages, the people are SUPPOSED to look unnatural and weird and if you are questioning your decision to have ever begun painting, you're doing it right.
 
My paintbrush slipped and Eren has fabulous eyelashes oops

Basically, do the layering thing with the hair. Base color first! Fun thing with the hair is that you can mix dark and light for a base, with a lot of water, so you can get this cool hair look. That has big areas of dark and light. It doesn't have to look neat yet!

It is always a good idea with 'realistic' watercolor hair to do this, because if you just paint the strands without a base, often it might be very time consuming. This is the short cut easy way that I do it because lazy and not a real artist.

Even with black hair, it's good to have a color underneath, like a pale blue.
  • Black - light blue/brown
  • Redhead - light orange
  • Brunette - light brown
  • Blonde - very light pale grey/blue
Um

Many many layers of dark brown. I actually don't have a nice brown color, so when I did was mix this horribly bright brown with horribly bright blue, and then a lot of black and a bit of green and I got this color. <:

With watercolors, you inevitably WILL have to mix a lot of colors, and it is really trial and error. I know some artists actually know what they are doing, but I"m not one of them. All I know is, trial and error, use your scrap paper a LOT. ALSO, when you get a color you really like, make a lot of it and put it in your palette. And you have it saved for the next few months. c:
 

Make final clear lines with a thin paintbrush.It makes it look so much neater that way, but with minimal effort. I got lazy, you make the titan and then you realize you have no energy to actually paint it so you resort to your usual splatter ink ways.

Also, when I was painting Eren, after the many layers dried, I wnet over a bit of it with pen (white gel pen) for fine details, like a bit of touch up on the eyes, the nose, and chin. c:  If my person had white hair, I'd usually touch up there as well.
Legit: randomly splatter ink around. I have an ink bottle too, but I actually had a base layer of black watercolor, then covered it with ink. For the brush effect, I used that funny brush that looks like a fan. It makes cool lines. Just make sure to use it dry, because when it is wet, it usually makes thick, clean separated lines, and I kind of wanted the messy look.

And last photo finished! I hope this was useful! It took so much coding oh my gosh ;0;


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